I need an explanation

Dear..
I'm just a girl with a tiny heart..
Searching for a little love from you..
I never asked you to climb the mountain..
Or swim into deep blue sea to be with me..

I need your hand to walk through this life..not hope only..
No matter what happen I always want you to be in my heart..

But Today.
You hurt me again.
Why should you care her more than me?
Why should you sleep late while talk to the phone with her?
And contact her early in the morning? And I was the third?
Your particular friend might be happy reading this.
I thought we are tired enough having so much fun these days?

To the couple out there,
What do you feel when you found out the person he/she contact in the morning was not you?
Other girl/boy? Who he/she always contact and always be the issue of conflict between you two?
And the fact that you know they were old crush in schools?
What actually you normally do? Give chances even thousand apologize and forgiveness given?
I thought the past is past. Can I get back with my old crush too?

God,
Please give me the strength, I am weak and I had enough of sorrow days..
Send me an angel or a better one or the correct person.

Girllyen - Emotionally abuse



This picture was taken on 2nd of May..See how happy I am when you with me?

And my heart broken again today. Luka belum baik, jahitan terbuka lagi balik..

A true friend is always be the bestfriend.. I would like to say big thanks to Paris for being such an understanding and very mature advisor, Inden for crying shoulder, Eleanor for supporting me, Vanessa who always be there when I need and you all who never let me down even I am not always good in keeping contact. Anyhow.. I will go on till the end.. just like the song by Breaking Benjamin (lyric below) Even I cried the whole nite..i will go on until the end.. Breaking Benjamin - Until The End
So clever, whatever, I’m done with these endeavorsAlone I’ll walk the winding way .. here I stayIt’s over, no longer, I feel it growing strongerI live to die another day, until I fade away
Why give up? Why give in?It’s not enough, it never isSo I will go on until the endWe’ve become, desolateIt’s not enough, it never isBut I will go on until the end
Surround me, it’s easy, to fall apart completelyI feel you creeping up again .. in my HeadIt’s over, no longer, I feel it growing colderI knew this day would come to end, so let this life begin
Why give up? Why give in?It’s not enough, it never isSo I will go on until the endWe’ve become, desolateIt’s not enough, it never isBut I will go on until the end
I’ve lost my wayI’ve lost my wayBut I will go on until the end
Living is, hard enough, without you f@#king up
Why give up? Why give in?It’s not enough, it never isSo I will go on until the endWe’ve become, desolateIt’s not enough, it never isBut I will go on until the end
I’ve lost my wayI’ve lost my wayBut I will go on until the end The final fight, I winThe final fight, I winThe final fight, I win
But I will go on until the endWargh so ugly! Hahaha.. (ok this picture may cheer me up ;)