Selalu Mencintaimu~

When I miss someone that close to my heart.. I sing and pray, and hope they are happy always.. If they happy, meaning my prayer is heard.. Love you all.

SELALU MENCINTAI-MU <--listen here..
Jason & Nehemia
Album Sentuh Hatiku
Do = G

Em D C
SEJAK PERTAMA BERTEMU DENGAN-MU
Em D C
ADA RASA GETARAN CINTA
Em D C#dim A
YANG KAU PANCARKAN DARI AURA WAJAH-MU
C Am D
KU JATUH CINTA PADA DIRI-MU

REFF :
G D/F# Em
SELALU MENCINTAI-MU
D C D
DALAM HATIKU SELAMANYA
G D/F# Em
TIADA CINTA YANG LAIN
D C
HANYA KAU SATU
D G
KAULAH CINTAKU (ENGKAULAH CINTAKU)

BRIDGE:
C Bm
BIARLAH CINTA ITU ADA DALAM HATI KITA
Am Em
UNTUK SELAMANYA (SAMPAI SELAMANYA)
C Bm
BIARLAH CINTA ITU ADA DALAM HATI KITA
Am E
UNTUK SELAMANYA

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Love our nature..

I'm clearing up my emails today and found some old email where I neglected and found some information that I felt it is good if I share here.. even I'm not very concern at the first place, but it is useful for all of us after reading it again and again. Maybe we intend to see this kind of messages, however, it's not wrong if we remind ourselves right? ;) Have a good day and wealthier day ahead~ 2010 is near.. Most of you I believe that plan for travel dates, some weddings, but I have not seen any plan to improve on their religion side except those who are religious. Let's put a little prayer in our incoming 2010 and pray for those who lost their love ones, especially the case of Pulau Banggi, or even the last Tsunami victim and hope for a better future. I know, everyone is concern about their health and wealth nowadays, but less people care about what they did to the environment. Take care our environment. :)

Health important tips:-

Answer the phone by LEFT ear
Do not drink coffee TWICE a day
Do not take pills with COLD water
Do not have HUGE meals after 5pm
Reduce the amount of TEA you consume
Reduce the amount of OILY food you consume
Drink more WATER in the morning, less at night
Keep your distance from hand phone CHARGERS
Do not use headphones/earphone for LONG period of time
Best sleeping time is from 10pm at night to 6am in the morning
Do not LIE down immediately after taking medicine before sleeping
When battery is down to the LAST grid/bar, do not answer the phone as the radiation is 1000 times

Surat untuk daddy..

Happy Birthday dady..

Apa kabar? Sya harap dady sma mamam ok di samping Dia. Sorry sebab lepas dua hari baru dapat hantar khabar. Hari 5 tu, sya ada sibuk sikit, tapi sya bangun awal sebab sya ingat mau surprise untuk daddy, tapi daddy tiada. Baru sya ingat, sya belum delete lagi birthday reminder dalam hp sya.. Sorry sebab lama tidak hantar khabar. Kami semua sihat di sini. Recca pun sudah balik Sabah. Abang skrg di ILP, Oyo sudah pindah Teknik Likas. Ni laa pertama kali sya tiada hadiah untuk daddy ni, cuma doa dan janji untuk terus maju masih lagi sya bagi khas untuk daddy, mummy sma family kita ni.

Banyak hal yang sudah terjadi di sini biarpun daddy belum sampai 1 tahun kasi tinggal kami. C Mark sihat sudah, skrg dia suka hati sudah makan lada sma masih lagi berjual burger. Si meme dapat panggilan p kolej di Miri, nanti mumy pigi tu. Sya tidak dapat kasi kawan dia, tapi ada mama meme juga sama-sama dia. Tu hari sya ada p Singapore, 2 kali la ni tahun, syok ni, tapi tidak syok tiada daddy. Sya ada bawa mummy yang kali ke-2, panat dia berjalan, sampai dia marah kami sebab kami bawa dia jalan sampai sesat. Sya jarang balik Tampulan skrg ni, kesian tu kancil naik turun bukit bah. Kami ada beli kereta baru, tapi mamy yang selalu pakai. Tu rumah yang sya ambil tu belum lagi dapat OC. Ntah bila kunun siap tu. Sorry sya tidak habis belajar di UTM space tu, sebab banyak mau bayar. Mungkin bukan rezeki sya lah tu. PTPTN tidak lama lagi mau habis bayar sudah.

Skrg ni, selain kerja, sya jadi part time photographer juga. Syok ambil gambar ni. Ramai kawan-kawan yang suka tengok gambar sya, ada juga yang tidak suka, sebab banyak kelemahan sya. Masih mau belajar rajin rajin ambil gambar. Sya ada team sudah ni, blog kami kan http://pixelayer.blogspot.com ni. 4 orang saja kami, tapi semua kawan pun ambil bahagian juga kalau ada projek. Cuma masa ni kami masih lagi sibuk mengatur masa sma system photography kami.

Banyak sya mau cerita sma dady tapi sya harap daddy selalu dengar doa kami. Tadi lepas sya habis rosary, sya dengar suara dady suruh sya tidur. Kalau boleh, jangan lah bah tegur sya lewat malam, sya sedih. Lama sya tidak bergusti sma daddy, sya rindu p panjat panjat belakang daddy, berolok-olok.. sya rindu dady ba ni.. Sya rindu kena telefon tiap petang, jam brapa sya balik kerja. Tiap malam kena tanya sudah makan ka belum. Huhuhu.. Tiada sudah kawan sya bergila skrg di rumah.. Tiada sudah bunyi berdengkur yang sya bleh rakam dari bilik sya.. Sunyi sepi......

No matter what, you are always in my mind. Love you dad. Sadly be missed 24 July 1964 - 18 October 2008..

I missed those days in MMU

I was searching my name “Veralyn Marcie Ismail” in the google search engine and found out Aleaf old blog and how I missed those days when we were still ‘solid’ and youthful. Our junior create a seloka to us and I am happy to share here as well. Aleaf, copy paste your post kejap ok? ;)

source: http://gr3en-fr3ak07.blog.friendster.com/2006/07/

p/s: feel like one big family, I still remember clearly they called me as "Mummy" - Penyayang kan? Hahaha.. yaii..

*SELOKA SENIOR DITTE BATCH*

Berbadan comel bercermin mata

Sekilas pandang mata tergoda

Jangan di tanya siapa empunya

Mark Dillon , milik si ‘Vera’….

“Mummy” itu gelarannya

Tinggi lampai cantik mengoda

Veralyn Marcie Ismail tuannya

Mark : “oi! Itu saya punya”

Sekali lirik dua kali jatuh

Rambut lurus guna jari pun boleh

Ratu unduk ngadau gelaran diri

Carol Oolmela yang cantik di ‘sini’

Tunggu aku di jakarta mu

Lagu favret ketika jamming

Bermain gitar itu hobinya

Macam jay chou…Osmund jak sorang

Berhati kecil Berjiwa cinta

Pendiam penuh berisi orangnya

Kaya tapi hanya pada namanya

Mohd Richard itulah dia

Kecil molek hitam manis

Tapi please bukan kismis

Berkepit bertiga itu kerjanya

Roslizawati ndak payah teka

Ed, Eddy kartun kegemarannya

Hari rabu jangan di tanya ke mana

Golden Cinema di situlah tempatnya

Ed Benedict , ‘S’ trademarknya

Muka handsome suka ketawa

“Rindunya aku” itu katanya

Setia pada kekasih hatinya

Christie ML Cletus itulah dia

Berjambang tapi bukan OSAMA

Nak kata ‘Daddy’ muda pula

Tempat rakannya mengadu bicara

Semestinya abang Gregory kita

“Handsomenya kau Matt?” tergoda saya

“main2 jak bah jangan kau marah”..

Lembut penyayang itu personalitinya

Siapa lagi kalau bukan Shasha

Rambut rebonding style terbarunya

Makin terserlah keayuannya

Timbalan Presiden itu jawatannya

Tak lain tak bukan itulah Azlina

“Nakal..” itu si ‘dia’ yg kata

Jangan marah bergurau saja

Mari kita tengok siapa yang kena

Halimah kau lah tue ba..

Bee..zoom..bunyi motor nya

Jangan di Tanya apa bangsanya

Tegap macho pintar berkata

Mazlan Murad tyco MMC..kunun la

‘Model’ dari tawau datangnya

Bijak bergaya jeles nye

Bermata galak keistimewaanya

Nama penuh “Adlina Magbanue”

Gaya Dragon Ball pilihan hati

Tanya saja tau segala

Lirik mata memikat hati

Nooraliff Ismail diberi namanya

Nak kata Korean susah

Nak kata Cina pun susah

Daniel, insan di beri nama

Bermata sepit Berbadan sasa

Sekian saja madah bicara

Sebagai kenangan suatu masa

Mohon ampun tersilap kata

Andai tersinggung kiranya ada

Masa itu umpama musuh

Ia berlari ketika indah.

Ia berjalan ketika duka

Namun, ia mengajar kita untuk mengingati dan melupai..

I need an explanation

Dear..
I'm just a girl with a tiny heart..
Searching for a little love from you..
I never asked you to climb the mountain..
Or swim into deep blue sea to be with me..

I need your hand to walk through this life..not hope only..
No matter what happen I always want you to be in my heart..

But Today.
You hurt me again.
Why should you care her more than me?
Why should you sleep late while talk to the phone with her?
And contact her early in the morning? And I was the third?
Your particular friend might be happy reading this.
I thought we are tired enough having so much fun these days?

To the couple out there,
What do you feel when you found out the person he/she contact in the morning was not you?
Other girl/boy? Who he/she always contact and always be the issue of conflict between you two?
And the fact that you know they were old crush in schools?
What actually you normally do? Give chances even thousand apologize and forgiveness given?
I thought the past is past. Can I get back with my old crush too?

God,
Please give me the strength, I am weak and I had enough of sorrow days..
Send me an angel or a better one or the correct person.

Girllyen - Emotionally abuse



This picture was taken on 2nd of May..See how happy I am when you with me?

And my heart broken again today. Luka belum baik, jahitan terbuka lagi balik..

A true friend is always be the bestfriend.. I would like to say big thanks to Paris for being such an understanding and very mature advisor, Inden for crying shoulder, Eleanor for supporting me, Vanessa who always be there when I need and you all who never let me down even I am not always good in keeping contact. Anyhow.. I will go on till the end.. just like the song by Breaking Benjamin (lyric below) Even I cried the whole nite..i will go on until the end.. Breaking Benjamin - Until The End
So clever, whatever, I’m done with these endeavorsAlone I’ll walk the winding way .. here I stayIt’s over, no longer, I feel it growing strongerI live to die another day, until I fade away
Why give up? Why give in?It’s not enough, it never isSo I will go on until the endWe’ve become, desolateIt’s not enough, it never isBut I will go on until the end
Surround me, it’s easy, to fall apart completelyI feel you creeping up again .. in my HeadIt’s over, no longer, I feel it growing colderI knew this day would come to end, so let this life begin
Why give up? Why give in?It’s not enough, it never isSo I will go on until the endWe’ve become, desolateIt’s not enough, it never isBut I will go on until the end
I’ve lost my wayI’ve lost my wayBut I will go on until the end
Living is, hard enough, without you f@#king up
Why give up? Why give in?It’s not enough, it never isSo I will go on until the endWe’ve become, desolateIt’s not enough, it never isBut I will go on until the end
I’ve lost my wayI’ve lost my wayBut I will go on until the end The final fight, I winThe final fight, I winThe final fight, I win
But I will go on until the endWargh so ugly! Hahaha.. (ok this picture may cheer me up ;)

Love hurts..

He was talking on the phone..
I was 5 meter from him..
Still waiting for him..
He still laughing on the phone..

I tried to attract him..
But seem he enjoy the conversation..
I sms him after failed to attract him..
He read my sms after ended the conversation..

He enter the car..
I give a sweet smile..
He smiled to me back..
I feel warm but not welcome..

I drive and ask whose calling
he said friend - a guy
I test him - let me see
He refuse..

It's hurt..

We chat we look at each other eyes..
I can't find me in his eyes..
I feel strange..
I stop..

We move to other place..
I try again..
And I can't imagine
How the other girl looks like?

I send him home..
The clock ticking..
But I feel so slow..
I should be home early..

He is home..
I was confused..
I hate but I have no choice..
I'm dilemma..

It's hurt..

I can't sleep..

It's hurt..

I can't focus..

It's hurt..

All because of Love..

and it's hurt..

Holy Friday

* Plan to go for way of the cross - Failed due to lateness of wake myself up
* Attended the celebration of the passion of the Lord at 3pm at St. Petrus Chapel, kg. Tampulan, Telipok, my own kampung

* Fasting - no meat, small meal

* Cooking for dinner

That's all for now, I guess I have been updating quite a number of new post for today.

It's Complicated and I hate it

I am not in a good mood. I feel that I am lack of love and rest. Frankly, I need something cuddling and a warm massage. In a time like this, the past of me came into my mind. Two years ago, I have been dating with my dear and it was sweet like lollipop. After a few years, distance by location, we intend to be lost contact, lack of communication and desire of let go something that precious in our life is getting high. Maybe it just me or I am not use to be lonely like this. The situation getting complicated nowadays. A guy can say He will be by your side every moment and the fact is he is so far away and the promise of being together soon is just a piece of sweet talks. Never say the thing that beyond your expectation. Do not give hope to a girl especially like me. I put in so much hope until up to the level of 'fed up'. Why are we crash in love when it ended with hates and frustration?

Sometime I ask myself, how does it feel to be someone who is single and available? Married? How does it feel? Single but not available? For how long? Is it really makes you happy? What do you feel living together with someone you love and suddenly you realize that he is gone forever? Life has been always unfair and I wish I can control all of these. God is great. Yes, and we all are failure. Human can buy a house, a car, or a PhD. But, are you happy with the human creation? We still seek for happiness, when we are stress at work, we need relaxation which we cannot buy. Just like women on diet. She want to get the slim figure back, buy those slimming tea is easy, but we cannot buy motivation to be slim. Did you get me. This is what happen to my life lately. I have been thinking and stressing about all of the sudden change in my life. Nevertheless, I would like to take this opportunity to wish you a blessed lent season.

You are my 'Bintang Hati'

I want to dedicate this song to all my lovely friends out there.. Thank God is Friday ;)



Bintang Hatiku - September Band

Yang kini engkau cinta
sebagai bintang hati
teruslah berpijar
hingga saat kau lelah
kau hanya bisa temani
untukku saja

hingga esokku berarti
bepata cintaku untuk kau hias
sebagai bintang hatimu
hingga hari sekian cintamu utuh
bersamaku

Engkau dinda yang kupuja
teruslah bermimpi indah
http://girllyen.blogspot.com
hingga hariku menjemput impian
Engkau dinda yang kusayang
teruslah berharap
bawa aku bintang hati yang terindah...

Bila usai cintamu ku hanya bisa
nyanyikan lagu ini untukmu...woo.ooo.ooo...
Engkau dinda yang kupuja
teruslah bermimpi indah
hingga hariku menjemput impian
Engkau dinda yang kusayang
teruslah berharap
bawa aku bintang hati yang terindah...

p/s.. Dear.. i miss u..

Random Activities Done by Girllyen

Hahahah! Yes! I have mood to blog today.. I have so many to tell you! Yes,.you! I am pointing at you~! Don't look at the back. Listen, I have gone through many places starting of this new year of 2009! Not that travel around the world, but too many functions, event, activities which steal my precious time. Well, should not refer to stealing but, I almost collapse myself into as I spent my time busy with friends, family and not to forget the WORK! Yiew~ I work almost more than 12hours per day in the office you see. And I know it is unsafe to work more than 12hours! What else I can do? Runaway just like that? No way! Still, my work never satisfied my bosses, year.. I might bad in time management.

Anyway, let's talk about where have we been these days. There were too many things happen lately, remember I was thinking to bring all my friends to our orchard and have durians? I had to cancel the appointment because one of our family member follow my dad to heaven on 21st of January. He is my dad's sister's husband. The time he passaway, I didn't manage to attend the funeral in Tenghilan. Sorry bapa tua.. I was working like BS in the office. Try to get all done! Please don't try this at home. It's so dangerous~~~

On 25th of January, 100th days my late dad, not many people come for the prayer. We were confused of inviting people to our house, so we decided to invite certain family members and friends to join us in the prayer. It was Sunday, so after church we went to my dad punya kubur bakar lilin, but I think my late dad was too sad so after reach home, hujan la pula.. I dont think the lilin still hidup la..

So..tibalah CNY.. 26th January.. We still berkabung for bapa tua.. Sorry I didnt post any CNY wishes in my blog.. But I hope you all enjoyed your Chinese New Year~ ;) Pagi tu I didnt go anywhere.. only the afternoon laa.. mumy, papap, ingkok and I went to Abang Kimbun punya house at SK Inanam 2 @ Inanam. It's their kids birthday and CNY open house, so apa lagi.. makan laa berabis.. hehee.. nasib tidak sakit perut..

27th was the 7th day memorial prayer for bapa tua.. kami jalan awal actually dari rumah.. but ntah brapa kali change car, then drop at ben's car wash cuci the car, and straight away p Tenghilan.. Burutak aka berlumpur ba there.. killer laa.. (tengok gambar) tapi yang mahal tu.. we were late.. The prayer just start and we were almost missed the prayer.. Sedih me rasa.. I know how is the feeling of losing someone who near to your heart. Someone is really an idol for you. Look after you from baby til besar kepala. *huhuhuh* I really missed dad's jokes.. He always gila gila like me and I really feel that he's alive in me but I can't touch or punch him at the back or do our stone cold skills. I wish I have more time with him..

The Prayer

Lopak!

Burutak!

The duck!

My cousin and niece

Close Cousin

Another cousin ;)

Oh no.. time is jealous la pula.. time to sleep now.. Good night everyone ;)

Sex Risk Married or Not

Not Married


GF: Darling, I think I’m pregnant!
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BF: Have you buy the pregnancy test and test it?
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GF: No, but I’m late for my menstrual.
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BF: Go and seek doctor, I’m working now, talk with you tonight. (hang up)
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Married
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Wife: Darling, I think I’m pregnant!
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Husband: When did you check?
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Wife: No, but I’m late for my menstrual.
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Husband: We go and the doctor later ok, I ask my boss to go off early. Love you darling.

Some boyfriend, they are responsible, but most of them only begging for it but once pregnant? He run away or the bad things happen, abort the child, be responsible laa, berani buat berani tanggung. What say you? How many of you agree sex before marriage is good? Why? Or maybe you can share a little bit of your experience?

Friendship or Friendshift?

Some pictures sharing

Do you still remember when you are still a little kid, play with other children in a playground? Have you missed your induction week during high school? Remember the time when Saturdays were all about your friends? Chill out in a coffee shop or 'mamak' stall for a cup of 'teh tarik' talking about the handsome guy pass your table with a wink and catch your attention? Do you realized that we making new friends everyday?

While making new friends, would you like to lose your old friends? As we getting older, we all intend to change our lifestyle, from a high school teenager, to a serious student, casual part time worker, and maybe a professional by now. You like it or not, you will meet new people and slowly leave your best friends, without you realizing it. Some are intentionally leave but most of them were not, like me! I never neglected my friends, I love all my friends as how Jesus love his children, but I am not Jesus, I am one of his children and we all shared the same status. Children of God. Satan best friends too!

Friendship is like a telephone conversation. The conversation begin with a simple 'hi' and always ended with 'bye'. Often return calls. Unless the contact number change, then you lost contact! Notice that I have been meeting all my old friends this few weeks not by their ages but the period of time. I learn that, no matter how far you go and lost urself in the jungle, I am sure you will find your way back home. And the home will make sure you are protected from the sun and rain. Did I sound scary tonight? Too much 'flower line' for me. I just tried to get the picture how a friendship look like. No one want to be alone for the whole life isn't it?

I had a big fight last night, not quite, it is not a fight but some miscommunication with my dear which almost to an end. Glad, I still manage to control my anger and think at the bright side. Last night takes me into a wider mind of thinking. Why we always can't tolerate with our boyfriend? Look at ur best friends, sometime can be irritating. There will be one who always be there for you, but once they moved to another place or maybe starts their study, no more sms or even calls, they, who never forget ur birthday suddenly missed and only remembered after saw your little celebration birthday party pictures in Facebook or Friendster. But do you pissed off and kick them out? You may mumbling, grumble a little but reply with 'it's ok bah', 'I understand'.

In a relationship, friendship rules should apply in love. The only problem I experienced was, when you treat him like a friend, he might treat you like his friends too. Despite off the kissing part and pampering moment, he still treat you like 'I can take care of myself in the future' and forgot about the 'commitment' of being together! Soulmate? Dead! I am confused when talks about relationship but this is happening. You try to make things right, but always ended with failure and frustration. Life is not a rehersal, whatever step you make will be the path where you will be going. You can't turn back and say, owh sorry, I took the wrong way.

To all my beautiful and gorgeous friends, sorry for being irritating and annoying all the time. Time is damn expensive nowadays and I just cant afford to share with all of you. Believe me, all of you will remain in my heart, Always, Never Forgotten. Love, Girllyen.

My 1st Post for the year 2009!

Happy New Year 2009, finally, but we only start the 2009 year. Some people say what is so special to celebrate the new year? Same thing bah, just like the month changing. Some people celebrating with the family, friends, their loved ones, all in happier mode but I bet there are some people is suffering during the day. Have a little prayer for the people who really need attention, some love, like the war happen throughout the world, disasters, we should not forget them! Amen.

Like everyone, I did enjoy my new year eve not in the club this time (which I plan to..hehe..)but with my family at my BFF house. We have BBQ, Advent Child Exchange Gift, Karaoke Session and much more. Share some pictures with you all. My new resolution for the year of 2009.

1) Improve my time management - blog/photography (need to put into my task this year)
2) Save more money (maybe save RM500 per month in ASB)
3) Sleep more
4) Exercise more, eat less
5) Do more charity this year

For those who don't have any resolution this year, wish you all the best throughout the year!

The kids sing Pudar by Rossa


Some lihing session


I'm with my Advent Child - Sharlena

After the countdown - I run before I get wet

Love will always be Loved

Before

I was doing my new year task, and so it happen my dear was online tonight. So, we have a short chat through Yahoo Messenger and I ask him whether he want to have a look or edit into my new planning for the year 2009. I knew what the outcome will be but I thought maybe he want to add something serious this time. And the result is, yes, Love will always talks about Love.

After

Maybe that's why friends is so important so we can talk about other things. Anyway, thanks for making my day dear. Love you so much. This is what he says while I'm updating this post.

my dear: hee
my dear: dear??
my dear: way od u?
girllyen: mau update blog before sleep..
my dear: zz
my dear: limpas da jadual
my dear: hehe'

Hehehe.. 2009 baru start bah my dear..

My Christmas 2008

Wake up around 8am, alarmed by my beloved mummy, I have a morning personal prayer before heading to the bathroom. After a warm shower, I heard my scolding my brothers because sleep late last night which effect their super lazy mood to wake in the morning. How I wish daddy still here. He will be the one who support mummy to wake them up so no chaos in the morning. My youngest brother is better than the older one, the elder brother always end up like he knows everything and he act like he is the only man who know the world better. His ego is killing me! My mum always cry because of him! And he never felt guilty about it. Maybe yes but he never change the attitude. Without mummy, he would not be in this world. I curse himself of being the rudest child in our family. Please give some respect to your own mother. I bet his life will be more miserable if my mummy not around.

After a moody morning, we ended going to Telipok Ria (Grandma House) without my elder brother. If he really want to stay at home, he should not go out that day but I know he already influenced by his bad friends to be what he want to be. He know to smoke and never understand what Family means which I failed to understand him as well. What I know he only can do bad things rather be a successful person. I wish he reads this but I strongly believe that he never have time for this even he always borrow my broadband to surf the internet.

We celebrate our Christmas at Telipok Ria, mummy cooks some dishes and we did enjoy the relatives visits. Thanks to all who coming. I missed you dad..

My Blue Dress bought @ POSE Boutique, some say I look slimmer in this dress, I just love whatever I buy from POSE Boutique ;)

My uncle and aunt haha..

My uncle aunt cont..

Merry Christmas to all..