Showing posts with label Learn to Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Learn to Love. Show all posts

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Picture of me

As I get Matured..


Consacrez à quelqu'un qui près de mon coeur

Quand je triste, je regarde mes dessins.
La photographie me guérit.
Ils veulent seulement être l'amour.
Comment de moi ? Sont je de l'amour ?
Je les aime. Je ne leur demande jamais de m'aimer.
Mais pourquoi je me sens blessé quand ils s'aiment seulement ?

Peut-être c'est une vie de photographe.
Capturez d'autres moments des gens.
Mais nous oublions toujours de capturer nos moments.
Quand nous ouvrons les albums.
Nous nous sommes rendus compte qu'ils n'ont jamais pris notre photo.
Ils demandent seulement leur dessin que nous avons pris.

La vie y ressemble, je devine.
Vous pouvez prendre simplement d'autres photos des gens.
Mais vous ne pouvez pas les a possédés.
Et ils peuvent oublier de capturer vos dessins.
D'une façon ou d'une autre quelque part, je les aime.


Which means..

Dedicate to someone who near to my heart

When I sad, I look at my pictures.
Photography heals me.
They only want to be love.
How about me? Am I out of love?
I love them. I never ask them to love me.
But why I feel hurt when they only care for themselves?

Maybe that is a photographer life.
Capture other people moments.
But we always forget to capture our moments.
When we open the albums.
We realized that they never took our picture.
They only ask for their picture which we took.

Life is like that, I guess.
You can simply take other people pictures.
But you cannot owned them.
And they may forget to capture your pictures.
Somehow somewhere, I love them.

Piece of Girllyen

Friday, October 2, 2009

Make Myself Happy

Somebody are not happy with me lately, I already state my sorry but I guess it is not working. Indeed, I am not happy about it, and try to make them understand but they still want to act with their 'suicidal note', 'threaten act', which I also have no idea what should I do about it and I could not forgive myself. Maybe I should be silent, loving them seem hurting them more. I swear to God, I will break down, cry and let it all out by myself. I hate being too dramatic, but this is for real, this time I know and I learned that someone will be tough as they are. I will struggling to fight my weaknesses and pray for their safety, maybe it takes 2-3 days, then I will face them again.

Stop being self-craziness, share with you something here. I went to Likas yesterday. Went to jog and suppose meeting Eleanor, missing her like a decades, she just came back from N9, and I just can't wait to meet her. But, unfortunately she a bit busy since she reach here. It's ok Eleanor, will go out with you next week, it's a promise ok, else I will kill you! Kidding kidding~! Missing my girlfriends lately, Inden, Corn, huhuh..

I check my photos collection last night, I saw some of these pictures, and try to make fun of it. This girl is my cousin's daughter, her name is Charlotte Grace but we called her Indai. She's cute and I just can't stand with kids! They are very adorable! Grrr.. I want babies~ :p However, Indai belum pandai bercakap ni. Hehehe.. Thanks to Ingkok @ Soscho for the snaps.

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Tuesday, August 11, 2009

How 'Care' effect the relationship

Hehehe.. Good afternoon everyone, I was looking at Care words today. And found some quote that have something to do with single vs in a relationship vs married couple out there. I guess, life like that. Just have fun and laugh with me. ;)

5 days with the girl/guy
“I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do...I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.”

5 months In a relationship
“Whatever words we utter should be chosen with care for people will hear them and be influenced by them for good or ill.”

After 5 years married
“I don't know, I don't care, and it doesn't make any difference!”

Hahaha..~ ok.. for me.. our lives should care like this..

“Life is short, don't waste time worrying about what people think of you. Hold on to the ones that care, in the end they will be the only ones there.” - thanks for those who care for me.. Not easy but deep in my heart I really² appreciate that. Thanks for being there.
No picture available at the moment - will upload it later ;)

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Missing someone is not easy

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This is what we call, a happy family

Yea.. missing someone is not easy as, "aa.. sekejap saja baitu.. pejam celik.. jumpa balik.." Urgh.. I don't understand, our relationship is almost 4 years and the feeling of missing when he is not around was like we just declared ourselves as boyfriend & girlfriend yesterday.. No wonder so many people in this world could not stand with distance relationship. Even 2 miles away. i miss his eyes, I miss his smile, the way he care even sound rude and full of depression sometime, his smell, huhuh, I wonder if I lost him forever? I just can't imagine and I pray if he leave me, please take away my life too.
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We like to act silly sometime..

Finding or knowing someone who care for us is not an easy thing for me. I'm the type of person who awkwardly do not really look into, how to say perasan? Maybe I'm too friendly and never thought a friend could fall in love with me just like my dear did. I will not know if he didn't told me that he likes me. Yay! Again, that's the problem to our relationship, I am too friendly and my boyfriend is not. My family wondering why did I fall in love with guy who not 'sound' like me. Totally opposite, I'm quite agresive, loud, talk like a stupid person, like to do charity like give free stuff, while him, a bit quiet, bad tempered, eager to look for money.
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He is trying to seduce me.. but..

Whatever it is, love is a mysterious thing that happen in my life. I cannot say love is joy, because sometime it hurts us so bad and may create hatred, I cannot say love is everything also because with love we cannot drive the car unless we learn to drive a car, some say, love sucks, I guess it sucks your soul to one another and maybe why those phrase exists.
mask
I pampered them with mask and he fall to sleep..

And even I blog too much about this, I still miss him. :D Miss you sugar~ ;) Love you!

p/s: after a long period of relationship, your conversation will be slower, even through IM, don't worry, it's normal.. ;) That is the sign of getting old.. hihihi.. ;)

Monday, June 1, 2009

Long Weekend

Indeed a long weekend, but I have limited time to update my blog. This is because I am busy with my dear and as he left, my life become miserable and silent again. No laughter or even a guy to argue with. He know me well as a stone-headed girl to him, but I love him very much to the point I could die. Probably he put a spell on me. ;) I hope our love is pure. No spelling bee! :p
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Day 29 May 09 - Sabah Holiday - in lieu 30 May (1st day of Harvest festival)
- Fetch him and have lunch and other eating session. (well, there are nothing else we could do rather than eating you see)
- Night, I went out with my family to KDCA, watch some cultural performance from selected high school around Sabah
- Chill out with Inden & Len @ Texas.. Len.. i miss u!
Texas
Day 30 May 09 - 1st day of Harvest Festival
- Fetch him and have our bfast 2gether
- To the airport - have lunch with his family before fly to Manila.
- To Papar, celebrate the senior bday -- meet the soon-to-become family
- Back to KK and had our dinner at Damai, lamb chop!
Mark & Max
Day 31 May 09 - 2nd day of Harvest Festival
- fetch him, quite late, sorry i woke up late ba dear.. so tired..
- To kokol, tingu tingu jalan..
- again.. eating session..
- shopping at City Mall
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1st June 09 - still holiday - in lieu 2nd day of Harvest festival which fall on Sunday
- fetch him, take bfast at Likas.
- have our morning walk
- drop at Beverly Hills meet his friend
- Accompany him buy burger wrapper at pasar kk..
- send him back to pack up his thing..
- left gradually

*Hope to see him again next week. Really.
Girllyen
But again, Terminat: Salvation rocks!!!!!!! I like it so much!! yay!!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Love remains the same

Love Remains The Same - Gavin Rossdale

A thousand times I’ve seen you standing
Gravity like a lunar landing
Make me want to run till I find you
I shut the world away from here
Drift to you, you’re all I hear
Everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

Find the place where we escape
Take you with me for a space
The city buzz, sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I had to find just where you are
The faces seems to blur, they’re all the same

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don’t you trick me out
We shall overcome
So all have stayed in place
We should have had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we’re over here

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time, too long defending
You and I are done pretending

I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change

I, oh I, I
wish this could last forever
I, oh I, I
As if we could last forever

Love remains the same
Love remains the same

*And so..our love remains the same.. This is real life and not a drama, you might get the same situation in the future. Thanks for all who support us and for those who tired of pushing me off from these relationship, well, I guess I am still stubborn and dare to get hurt again. It's not easy to be in a relationship and I think I should overcome with it and fix the problem, not to ruin everything that we build since 1st October 2005. I am not the type of easy come easy go. It takes time for us to be together and I believe this phase is only a trial for me. And I am officially jealous because I realized that I love him so much. By the way, I feel sorry to Sharon & Eleanor for leaving this evening. I reach 1Borneo at 5.30 where we have promised to watch movies together, but I feel like butterfly in my stomach while surfing the net @ Starbuck. So, I choose to leave at 7pm as I am afraid I will not feel comfortable later on. No hard feeling ok? God bless you all~

Mark & Girllyen

Monday, May 4, 2009

The busiest week ever!

Aloha! I am full of energy today! Okay, I lie. Actually I really need some rest. Just a short update here. Will update sooner! ;) (I have owe pictures of Melohom Bay outing also. I know.)


What made me busy? Hehehe.. well..

27 April 2009 - Reports! Reports! Reports! Work Work Work..

28 April 2009 - Reports! Reports! Reports! -- Out with Fharelynne - Meet the BFF - Rumba - The BED - 17th Crush last day

29 April 2009 - Working during the day -- Fetching my dear -- Get hurt after that -- relieve at City Futsal Centre ;)

30 April 2009 - Month end reports! Telecons + Meeting (Packed!) -- Meet my dear after work -- Still under bad mood -- dinner @ New York New York, 1Borneo -- Wacth movies (Make it happen (9pm) Bohsia (11pm)

1 May 2009 - Western Breakfast with him -- watch movies again (Mall Cop (7pm) 2 fast 2 Furios (9pm)

2 May 2009 - Sabah Fest - Magellan Sutera -- Fun Fair @ Papar -- Visit dear's grandparent house @ Papar -- Back to telipok

3 May 2009 - Last day with dear -- went to Sabah Museum -- Send to airport -- back to Telipok fetch grandma - Sabah Fest grand -- back telipok -- FLAT

What a packed week! huhuh.. Share some pictures here ;)
Blues
The Blues ;)
Futsal
City Futsal Centre - SabahRhinos.Com routine (every wednesday)
Breakfast
The simple breakfast
Sabah Fest
With the grandparent
Fun Fair
Fun Fair - not fair enough
Us
With him @ Sabah Museum
Sabah Fest
Last night @ Sabah Fest - My aunties, cousins, my grandma behind.
Back to work now. ;)
By the way, I keep listening to this song Selalu Mengalah by Seventeen.. To all the couple in love out there, never give up! I almost there but thank God, as we go along together, we found that we should be more understanding and be honest to each other, NEVER ASSUME, let it out before your anger control over you.